History and Skin

Skin By Sixx: A.M. and why I listen at least once a day to this song.
 
Paint yourself a picture
Of what you wish you looked like
Maybe then they just might
Feel an ounce of your pain
 
I am Shaman by birth not choice. I always wanted write fiction and make movies and music and stuff. I am working that in to my life. 
 
The things that hurt the most is that being born the Taltos I am means I often happen to be right and I never feel the need to be right.
 
I can’t even begin to describe the amount of loss that has brought to me in life. It’s pretty much why I spend so much time in solitude and have taught myself to enjoy it.
 
They say wisdom is for the world and I rarely meet any as wise as I am and most of the time it’s why I alienate people and they find reasons to exclude me from their lives.
 
You never get used to that when you do truly love people or you never would have said a word.
 
It’s as unfair to me as it feels to the people I call out on their bullshit even when they have no idea they are full of shit.
 
Born doin’ this.
 
At 42 it ain’t going anywhere.
 
Come into focus
Step out of the shadows
It’s a losing battle
There’s no need to be ashamed
 
I am never going to apologize for being able to be correct because I channel Source wisdom.
 
I was born with a short leg that I fixed myself internally.
 
By that alone it should tell you I know exactly what I am talking about unless I say otherwise.
 
Since then I have tasted more pain and suffering from exclusion for being right than anything else in my life.
 
Yet I still keep bringing it from within with everything I have got to live the love people talk about and I back up in action daily.
 
‘Cause they don’t even know you
All they see is scars
They don’t see the angel
Living in your heart
Let them find the real you
Buried deep within
Let them know with all you’ve got
That you are not your skin
I don’t know how to not love all of you.
 
Some of you I dislike at times and some of you have lost my respect for the lack of respect you show for yourself and others. However I guarantee you if you ever needed anything and I could do it, it’s done.
 
I used to give free cab rides to an ex girlfriend and check in on her after we broke up because she had no one else doing it.
 
I forgave a man who assaulted a woman close to me and then later he ended up helping my nurse a broken heart that this woman broke.
 
I have given away roughly $5 million in free energy work and counseling over the last few years and most of that, 99% of it to women in or coming out of abusive relationships.
 
I give most of my physical energy to my dad who has Parkinson’s to keep him out of a wheel chair. Part of my energy healing technique.
 
I accelerate people though the awakening process. My energy gives people a total ramp up just hanging out with me.
 
I made myself a conduit for this so I just radiate it. There is a big boost of it going into this.
 
I do nothing but give in my life.
 
And the next set of lyrics applies to this as well.
 
When they start to judge you
Show them your true colors
And do unto others
As you’d have done to you
 
I give without reservation or question or expectation because I can.
 
Just rise above this
Kill them with your kindness
Ignorance is blindness
They’re the ones that stand to lose
 
My kindness is my honesty. It’s that honesty and being an open channel that allows me to remove ignorance and drop the veil.
 
What people stand to lose is their ability to lie to themselves about who they are and who they have been and the effect their choices have on the sum. 
 
They see the suffering they inflict on others. 
 
They lose irresponsibility.
 
They lose the ignorance that was their bliss.
 
They lose their innocence as they judge themselves. I hold judgement for no one. I always say judge thyself alone and be forgiving and change the choices you make to avoid that guilt from ever creeping up from within again.
 
‘Cause they don’t even know you
All they see is scars
They don’t see the angel
Living in your heart
Let them find the real you
Buried deep within
Let them know with all you’ve got
That you are not your skin
 
Nothing centers me more and faster than this song.
 
Cried the first dozen times I listened to it and still do on occasion.

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