Dancin’ with the Devil on your back

They say when you dance with the Devil, you don’t change the Devil, the Devil changes you. I have often said the Devil has a fucked up job.

His job is to show you everything love isn’t, so you can discover on your own what love is.

Sometimes you need to take your life and SHAKE IT OUT as Florence and The Machine suggest in order to get that Devil off your back.

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn

The memories only hurt because you care. The memories stop hurting once you learn to see it as the lesson in life it was. Learn to let go of the regret. Until you do that those memories are the waking nightmare you have chosen them to be.

Keeping it all in and keeping it to yourself only makes it worse. Until you deal with it, you will push yourself into situations that will keep bringing it up. It can feel as though a nasty demon has it’s teeth sunk in deep to get that pound of flesh. It’s that pain that never ends until you realize you’re the one making it hurt.

And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I’m always dragging that horse around

All of his questions, such a mournful sound
Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground

Often we feel stupid for missing what was right in front of us all along.

Blinded by our life and what we want to do with it that we miss something.

Blinded by the pain of the past we won’t let go of.

Blinded by the desire to never let it happen again.

Holding on to the misery of days gone by is not much different than dragging a beaten half dead horse behind you every where you go. It’s cruel to think of someone actually doing that to a horse.

Why do we do it to ourselves?

Bury the fuckin’ horse already and let go of the pain of the past that holds you back from seeing what is right in front of you.

 And I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart

A heart in pain knows no grace.

To let the grace of love flow true, let go of the pain of the past and embrace the now. Understand why it happened to better be prepared for what’s either right in front of you or around the next corner.

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It’s a fine romance but it’s left me so undone

And I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t
So here’s to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I’m ready to suffer and I’m ready to hope
It’s a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat
‘Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off

Think of the pain of the past as the Devil on your back that is keeping you from knowing what love is now.

Love is.

It’s messy as all hell and is at times is a whirlwind of joy and suffering wrapped in one. If you have never suffered, you have never loved. When you act out of love your ego dies and you sacrifice yourself for another so to speak. You become what they need you to be versus what they would want any to be.

It’s harder to be what they need than it is to give them what they want.

When you start to look for heaven, you begin to desire and see heaven as everything that has nothing to do with what love is.

As much as God and Goddess reside within each of us, The Devil is taking up residence as well. We give forms in our life through our experiences to these metaphors.

Those we exalt, those we despise.

We pretend it’s something different, however the behavior is the same.

Our inner divine allows us to forgive and learn and grow while our inner Devil holds onto the pain. The pain becomes a way to justify and/or rationalize why we do what we know we ought not do.

Shake The Devil off your back by letting go of the pain of the past and grow from the lessons learned and love now.

Whisper if you feel me.


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